hope

my lover is BACK! it feels so good to have him here at camp with me because all i could do while he was gone was think about him. unfortunately, he doesnt have the same feelings i have for him towards me, but just being around him is enough. i almost died today when he hugged me. i just wanted to be in his embrace for the rest of my life. it's kind of like im dreaming and hoping for the perfect romance that always happens in movies and books but will never happen in real life with him. ive fallen for a lot of people throughout my life, but i really really like him. like a lot. like i would want a book to be written about us and for people in the future to dream about having a romance as good as ours. of course, that is just the rambling of a lovesick girl so it's complete and utter nonsense. to clarify, this is not the guy from the previous lovesick rant. that, as it turns out, was a horrendous mistake and he turned out to be a jerk and i was just lonely. this is his best friend. it's weird how you make judgements on people and they can turn out completely wrong. like in the wrong continent kind of wrong. i thought that this guy was a total idiot and stoner, but it turns out that he is the opposite and the first guy turned out to be like my assumption. enough on that though. im just really glad that he is back at camp. because i was starting to become permanently depressed and irritable.

on a totally different note: Harry Potter number 7 (aka the last one) came out like 3 days ago and im torn between wanting to read it and find out what happens or the fact that i never want it to end. i don't think that i'll actually realize that it's over until i read the last word on the last page of the book. im already 350 pages into it and jk rowling has soo much more that she needs to cover that i dont know if she'll be able to do it in the second half of the book. im actually really curious as to how she is going to deal with the whole voldemort vs. harry thing. i hope that harry doesnt die, but we shall see... if i ever finish the book that is.

camp is just a lot of unnecessary drama again. the counselors and the jcrew have basically separated into two different groups with resentment just overflowing from the center of both. the age difference is actually playing a real role in the separation that didnt look like it would happen at the beginning. dont get me wrong. i still love camp like no other but its a little bit of a downer to have all this stuff going on. i wish people would just voice their frustrations rather than bicker about it. it's really eating away at the feeling of the camp. oh well. im going to go because i wrote a lot and the other jcrew are being ridiculous.

goodnite.
liadan