Changeling

I try to think about rainbows when it gets bad.
You got to think about somethine to keep from going mad.
I try to think about big fat roses when the ship starts going down,
but my head is wicked jealous. Don't want to talk about it right now.

In My Head - No Doubt

Shit. I just saw Changeling. It's so ridiculous that people in the world are THAT sick. and corrupt. and just plain BASTARDS. What is going on people?!?!?! Can't you see that you would be happier if you were nice to others?

ok wow.

i can officially say this is the LONGEST time i haven't posted since starting this thing... quick overview:

December:

-finals... didn't do horribly or terribly well either. just so/so. and then of course came xmas. new speakers, parents lorded over the iphone thing. gag me with a spoon. and then came sugarbowl. let's see... i gained weight, watched WAY too much tv, and actually got quite good at drums on ROCK BAND (best fucking game ever). Left early, which was nice, and got used to being home alone. then the fam came back and i wanted to shoot myself in the face.

January:

absoFUCKINGlutely nothing. ring week came and went. i'm head of prom. i'm a lifeguard and mrs. meers in the upcoming production of thoroughly modern millie.

February:

a great friend (JERI) died on February 1st. i found this out the night before my birthday and OH WAIT, let's back track. i made an absolute fool of myself singing in front of hundreds of people and then cried like a baby about it. and then jeri dies way before her time because of cancer and now i'm just scared.

scared that i'll forget about her and scared that i'll die that early too. before i really accomplish something that i love. oh and i had my birthday. nothing special.

so basically the last three months have SUCKED

dazed and confused,
liadan